Friday, the thirteenth.

having no grandpa or grandma. it's rather difficult to me, my mom, aunties, uncles.

Friday, the 13th.
Once i entered my "full house" grandma's house, i felt a different atmosphere.
mourning, everywhere.
my aunties were crying. my uncles, tried to be tough, but i saw their eyes are wet and lil' bit red.
and for the first time, i saw my mom burst into tears.
*speechless*
i can only hold her hands, and keep the water stay in my eyes but it drop down anyway.. i cried.. i cried..

otak gw udah mulai kmana-mana, mikirin macem-macem. Apa yang bakal terjadi setelah ini? setelah mbah (nenek) gw meninggal dan dw ga punya kakek-nenek lagi. Dan rumah ini gede banget dan nyokap gw bakal tinggal sendirian.

last year, everything's going right. nothing to worry. My grandma was still as healthy as me. Going around the village everyday with her driver (pedicap driver). Wake up when it's still dawn, cooking, going to the market, chatting with her friends, making some phone calls, taking a nap, watching television, and so on. And she got 17 children. It is so amazing. She's the real super woman i met. After losing her husband eighteen years ago, she had to live and feed her 17 children in this house alone.

The last Christmas.
December 2010, the story has just begun. She had to be hospitalized for some complications for several weeks. She celebrated Christmas day in her bed and infusion going to her left hand. I just didn't ever think that it was her last Christmas with us. It's just so..unpredictable.
And things got worse.
After the medical treatment, the surgery, and whatever it called for months, she even got worse. She was being transferred to the ICU for several times. My auntie from Surabaya and my mom were so patient to sleep in the hospital everyday.

The phone call.
Thursday, the 12th. I got home late night that time. After a whole day long activity, i got my bed sooo delicious to slept on. Unfortunately i got headache so i can't sleep. until midnight, until 1.38 am, my phone rang. It was my mom, said "Nyil, besok kamu pulang ke rumah mbah ya pagi-pagi. Mbah dipanggil Tuhan....."
i was shocked. and cried. went to my friend's room (fortunately she still awake) and tell it with my tears going down no matter what.
and i finally really can't sleep that night. my mind kept thinking about her, my lovely grandma :(

My mom's birthday!
Tanggal 14 itu nyokap gw ulang taun cobaaaaa T.T dan rencana sabtu pagi sebelum pulang baru mau beli kado buat mama.. Dan batal.
She got sad, she always said, "Mama udah dapet kadonya duluan. Kadonya, kehilangan ibu." with her sobbing eyes.
God! bener2 kaya tamparan kenceng di pipi gw. Apa yg bisa gw lakuin saat itu?
I just can hold her hands and make some jokes so i can see her smile again..

From this day on, things got different from yesterday. And this BIG family have to accustomed with that. But i have no worry, for we have our AMAZING GOD who have much brighter future for this family. And we know that our grandma is smiling next to HIM, look down to this house from the heaven :)